"I am the resurrection and life; who ever believes in me, even if he dies, will live;
and everyone who lives and believes in me, will never die"
John 11:25-25

Another year has been rubbed out of our lives, but the eternal you, Mahat , twinkling distinctly, is never granted to be erased.
We grow, we forget, thatís what the books say; well, curse these harsh wisdoms. How can we forget Mahat?
How can we do with your smile mirrored on every tree, every desk, and every classroom, all seeking a unique answer: why did you leave us, Mahat?
A year has passed while youíre residing there, behind the scene, watching over, guiding, raising your girls, whispering eternal songs to your husband, and your spirit chants the sweetest melody: love and kisses from Mahat.
I hope you are receiving our love and kisses back.
"Thereís a reason for everything", the statement that drugs our sorrow.
What is the reason of your eternal journey, Mahat?

Khatchik Michel Khatcharian

To Mahat,

The fifth of November is looming. A year has passed darling without you, I miss you!

As you know our memory, we humans, betrays us gradually. But my darling even if there were busy days that overshadow my thinking of you, deep down in the bottom of my guts, my anguish for your leaving us exists.

In whatever situation I am, the happiness I am feeling, or the emotional turmoil I am going through, your image visits me. I say to myself ĎIíll tell Hattie when she phones. Iíll discuss it with her, she understands.í And then I remember; I wake up from my conscious dream and my guts respond intensely to the mental pain I experience.

Your granddad and dad went before you, their loss was big, especially your father. I owe him a lot Mahat: my love for family, my love for Arabic music and literature, my inquisitiveness and curiosity about world affairs, and my liberal thoughts. But what I owe him most is that he had a daughter like you. I wonít lie to you auntie, I will not say Ďyour death eclipsed theirsí, but believe me, the deep deep wounds it left are yet to heal.

Where are you now, I donít know... Are you still there, in the ether, looking down at us in our hum drum living, Ďtuttingí at the mistakes we make, or laughing harmoniously with us?!

Wherever you are my darling, bless us; bless us with your love.

Samya




دقت الساعة... وتوقف القلب عن الخفقان...
دقت الساعة... وحان موعد الرحيل...
رحلتِ باكراً... قبل المغيب...
رحلتِ مع أحلامك وأمالك...
رحلتِ مع أوجاعك وألامكÖ
رحلتِ بسلام...
رحلتِ... ورحل معك الفرح... كل الفرح...
فرح الحياة بك... وفرحك بالحياة...
حملتِ صليبك سرأ... خوفاً على الجميعَ إلا على نفسك...
لم يعرف قاموسك يوماً كلمة آخ...
أما أنا في كل لحظة أقول و أصرخ... آخ...
آخٍ على عروسٍ دفنت تحت التراب...
ولاحياة لمن تنادي...
إنطفأ السراج... واحترقت القلوب...
أبكيتِ البشر والحجر يا ابنتي...
أبكيتِ من في الأرض ومن في السماء...
قلتِ: هذه هي مشيئة الله...
قلتِ: ألف مرّة لي... ولا مرّة لأطفالي...
فماذا أقول أنا؟؟ أنا الأم الحزينة...
شربت الكأس المرةّ مرّتين...
حسبت الأولى كافية...
خطأت في الحساب...
وكان مالم يكن في الحسبان...
عرفت لحظة ولادتك... ما كنت أعرف لحظة وداعك...
ما أمرّها لحظة...
وهل هناك أمرّ من أن توِدِع الأم إبنتها القبر بنفسها...
أودعناكِ القبر يا أبنتي... ودَّعناكِ...
وداعاً يا خسارة العمر...
وداعاً يا مهات...
ودعاً يا مهات...
المهاة...




نادتني لتقول لي، "تلفون من أخيك.
" كنتُ في بستاني هول في الجامعة وسمعت صوت نعوم يقول، "دلال أنجبت ابنة. سمّيناها مهات وهي جميلة كالمهاة."
فرحت لأنكِ وُلدتِ في شباط مثلي. وذهبت إلى مرجعيون وحملتكِ وشعرت بفيضٍ من الحنان، غمرني.
كنت أراقب نموّك ... شعرت بلذةٍ وأنا أطعمكِ المهلبيّة، ألقّمكِ نصفاً وآكل ألآخر ونضحك معاً ... أضحك مع طفلةٍ عمرها ثلاث سنوات عرفتْ حلو الضحك والصداقة باكراً.
كبرتِ وكبرتْ معكِ بذور الجمال ... جمال الروح وطيبة الخلق ... وجمال الطلّة والجسد.
أذكر لمّا زرتُ مرجعيون بعد غياب ست سنوات يا فليونتي ولمحتكِ، قلت في نفسي: آهٍ كم هي رائعة طبعاً وشكلاً ...
ولم تخيّبي الآمال مهات بقيتِ كذلك حتّى آخر لحظةٍ من عمرك ...
ربطتنا صداقةٌ متينة كم فخرتُ بها، أنا عمّتكِ وأكبركِ جيلاً قدرت أن أخبركِ خفايا نفسي.
لم أشعر يوماً بفرق السنين بيننا بل استطعتِ أن تكوني ندّاً لي بنضجكِ وفهمكِ وحكمتكِ.
كم سأستفقدكِ ... كم سأشتاق لجرس التلفون يدّق من كندا، ولبيتر ونبيل وزينة يكلّمونكِ وتسألين عن أخبارهم قبل أن تبدأ جلستنا الهاتفيّة ... ساعة ... ساعتان ... لم نكن أبداً نشعر بمرور الوقت.
وكنّا دائماً نؤاسي بعضنا البعض، نحن المغتربات، كنّا نقول: نحن بين ثقافتين، واحدة غربيّة وأخرى شرقيّة ولا بدّ لنا من أن نجد الحلّ الوسط للأمور!
ثَبَتِ ونجحتِ يا غالية. وها أنتِ يا مهات تنعمين في مماتك كما في حياتك بحب واحترام الجميع، من الشرق كانوا أم من الغرب.
كم فجعتني رؤيتكِ آخر مرّة، مضطجعة ... نائمة أناديكِ ولا تسمعين. حسرةٌ كبيرة تركتِ في قلبي يا عمّتي، يا صديقتي، يا حبيبتي ...
أشكر الخالق لوجودكِ في عالمنا مهما كان قصيراً. سأكلّمكِ دائماً، أصبّحكِ وأمسّيكِ وعسى ذكراكِ تبقى نوراً دائماً في حياتنا يا هاتي

ساميه




On the 9th of November I kissed Your saint hands for the last time, and as always i'll continue to blow kisses Your way

Things have changed this time, things are going to change for the longest while and words would always fail.
I'm left with a grasp for air that chokes the heart, and a void that aches
I ache
The pain as perfect and intense as you
You Heart Breaker
You Gorgeous Gorgeous heart breaker

I lost.
I lost, and the loss is not yet comprehended
I have lost more than a Sister, more than a motherly feeling, more than a friend I have lost your unconditional heart
I lost, a part of my origin home
I lost and a big chunk of me is ripped off to void, and a brain storming like a restless hound trying to collect and hold on to whatever memories i can dig for I lost and in my weak faith my senses have shut down, they want more I have lost a Light house

There was a lifetime of dreams that now cannot be done,
There is yet a lot more love from me to you, a lot more to be said, and done

For a while I cannot chase you for a kiss on your neck, no more kisses on mine
or hearing you constantly calling your girl with my nickname
no more getting the phone calls when I just think of you
and no more being a clown hunting for a smile
no more play time, till you ask for a time out..

And as our connection was never broken by growing up apart, for Your Beauty is eternal.
for the girl who taught me how to dance when i was 7, thoughts of you are dancing wild in my heart
for the girl who took care of me when daddy wasn't well, look my way every once in a while
for every morning memory waking up to see you, seeing that silky night black hair of yours fall down, its every night that I will talk to you for our birthdays that sometimes we celebrated together...
for every inspiration you brought my way,
for You my Sister who redefined pride
for my Father's words that " one should hold his pain with pride" You Daddy's Girl. You Good Girl
for your fairy tale beauty and strength
for all the beautiful memories, its been a pleasure knowing You

for all that and much more, I pray
I pray that you sleep well Beauty, knowing that words cannot explain how much you've been loved... sleep tight

You rest well now,
Rest in Peace my Princess

Maysaa'




الغيوم في تظاهرة

وشمس الصباح غاضبة
رياحين الحديقة منحنية
نجوم الليل معتصمة
حساسين الفضاء باكية
يدي مرتجفة
عينيّ دامعة
سكون يعتريني
يكاد يسحقني
يضعني في قفص الواقع
يخنقني في جنون الموت
يأخذك مني
يأسرك ويأسرني
يحررك في السماء
يقيدني على الارض
ذهبت يا غاليتي
رحلت في شتاء دامع
في ليلة صمّاء
عصفت بي اشتياقاً
نادت بالفراق
وتبتسمين لي يا سمرائي
مع ذكرياتنا الشقية
عند ربوع مرجعيون الصاخبة
عند حافة بيتنا
لتتركين بصماتك
في ادق الذكريات
وتطبعين في سمائي
روحانية هائلة
تتدفق حياةً
وامل جديد ان نلتقي
هناك
في سماء الابدية
احبك مهاة
احبك صديقة العمر
واقبلي مني اعتذراً
لانني لم أقبل يديك

رلى فريد الحلو




My Lovely Angel...My Lovely Sister...My lovely Fellow... I will Miss You for ever...

No Words explain my Deep Pain & Sorrow for your loss...
I will never forget you Hattoo...
No more hearing your lovely voice & seeing your wonderful smile...
No more for laughing overseas....
No More planning for any future gathering with you...
Just waiting for seeing you one day in heaven with the angels.
Nothing can recover my sadness for you loss...I will never stop thinking about you...
I will never stop calling your home to hear your sweet voice in the answer machine...
I feel bad for I will not able to attend your funeral & will never forgive myself for this...
Rest in Peace my cousin...My sister...My angel MAHAT...
Love you
Tarek




This is sad, very very sad !
I don't know her that well as when I left Lebanon in '89 she was still young in school, but the only image I have of her is closer to the time she was getting married, she came to give my father the invitation to the wedding and she was a 'Rose'; you know with all that word carries of a meaning, a real lady and a youthful rose; pretty, confident, smart and above all proud .
This type of people never dies

My condolences to Rabah and everyone who knew her, God giveth and God takes away and He works in mysterious ways, one has his belief in this case and nothing else except the good memory and she defnitely left lots of it behind .
May God bless her soul.

Georges Maurice Dabaghi
UAE




My amazing cousin,
You promised to make up for not coming to my wedding in the summer...will you keep your word this time? You have always kept your word ya Hato.
Can't you at least come for one night so that we all see you and say good bye, so that we all tell you how much we love you, so that we spend one night altogether as we were promised to gather?
I can't believe that I will not be able to hear you say "Louma ya albi, kifik?" again.
Hato, do you remember when you and I ran away to eat red figs 2 years ago?
I think we will all be calling you home even after you slept to hear your voice in the answer machine.
You have a smile that gives strength, words that are full of power, and will keep traces in the character of everyone.
Even though I was not able to talk to you before you slept our angel, allow me now to tell you that no matter how far you are, you are in our hearts, minds, thoughts and inside everyone of us.
I will never have a day pass by without thinking of you, remembering you, smiling back at you, in your place in heaven.
I can never explain the sorrow and sadness I am feeling!
Love you and will always do...pray for us our angel
In Our Hearts Forever and Ever!

Lama Edmond Abou Mrad




I've been trying to sign this guest book over and over again, and yet I don't know what to say!
The words seem to escape me, may be because I am still not able to comprehend the fact that "Mahat" had left us.
Life is really not fair and sometimes too short.
"Mahat" was very sweet, loving, and thoughtful. God needed an extra angel, and perhaps this is why God had chosen her.
"Mahat" will be dearly missed, but rest assure that she is in a much better place now, and take comfort in knowing that you have a true and special guardian angel to watch over all of you.
May the cherished memories of special times, bring comfort in your sorrow, and peaceful solace to your hearts.
Please accept our sincere condolences.
"I am the resurrection and life; who ever believes in me, even if he dies, will live; and everyone who lives and believes in me, will never die" John 11:25-25

With our deepest sympathies,
Richard and Samia Janna and family




In 2001, I had the privilege of meeting Mahat at my wedding to Rabah's cousin, Ramzy. My first thought was how beautiful she was. I noticed the strong bond and connection she and Rabah had. I felt an immediate warmth from meeting her. A few years later, Mahat and her family came to the DC area again to my sister-in-law's wedding where we had the honor of having her, Rabah and the girls stay with us. During this time, I got to know Mahat on a more personal level and truly enjoyed the talks, laughs and friendship.
I will always cherish that time and am so thankful to have had those moments with her all to myself. In the short time we did have, I learned so much from her. I only wish we had more time.
She was one of those people who you wanted to be with. She was one of those people who you wanted to be like. She had so much strength. When I think of her, I see a beautiful, smiling face. I see an amazing, strong and loving mother who absolutely adored her beautiful girls.
I see a woman who was so in love with her wonderful husband, Rabah. I see a woman with much confidence and love. I will always remember her beautiful smile, the twinkle in her eyes, and her infectious laugh.
Rabah, Reena & Maicie, we love you and we are here for you. Please do not hesitate to let us know if you need anything. Know that we are thinking of you and we hope to see you soon in happier times.
Love,

Irene, Ramzy, Jacques & Nina Sayegh
Washington, DC




I miss Mahat's infectious laugh and positive outlook on life. I have had the privilege of being Mahat's friend for 12 years, and only wish I met her earlier.
I miss her hugs and regret that she did not meet my son, Avery. I can't believe that she is gone.
My deepest sympathies to Rabah and the girls. Her passing leaves a void in all of our lives.

Stephanie Rubec, a longtime friend




We were so saddened to hear about Mahat's passing. She was a beautiful woman taken too soon.
Our hearts and prayers are with you all during this very difficult time. We wish you much courage.

Afaf Smiley and family




Dear Rabah,
My deepest sympathy to you and your family.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this difficult time.

Sylvie Kiwan-Sadaka
Ottawa, Ontario




I was saddened to hear of Mahat's passing. Mahat and I became friends while studying at Versailles Academy.
I always remember her as a cheerful, loving person, whose smile would always light any room she entered.
She was absolutely devoted to her family and I am so sorry for your loss.
My prayers are with your family in this very difficult time.

Angela Russett, nee; Trevena
Ottawa, Ontario




Rabah, Reena & Maicie,
Our thoughts are with you at this time of deep sorrow for your family. Our deepest sympathy to you and your family.
We were privileged to know Mahat if but for a brief time.
Our prayers are with you at this time

Forest Valley School Age Program Staff
Ottawa, Ontario




Dear Rabah and girls
My thoughts and prayers are with you at this very difficult time.
I have been blessed to have met your family, and your loving wife Mahat.
She has a very special place in my heart.

Carol Yarnell
Ottawa, Ontario




I met Mahat about 10 years ago and she became a dear friend. You couldn't help but to like her.
Mahat was friendly, honest, sincere and hard-working. Her family came first. She was a blessing in my life and I will miss her.
Rabah, Maicie, Reena, you are in my prayers and I pray God's comfort and peace during this difficult time.

Christine Auger
Ottawa, Ontario




To Mahat's husband Rabah and darling daughters Reena and Maicie - remember your beautiful Mother and Wife forever - she was such a beautiful person inside and out.
Her memory is certainly etched in my heart forever.
Her suffering is over and she was one of the greatest troopers - so brave.

My thoughts are with her - it was so shocking to open the paper and see her looking at me - she is now at peace - She loved her family so much.

Debbie (Riverside Hospital)




Dear Rabah, Reena and Maicie,
It is so difficult to find the words to express my deepest sympathy.
I have been so fortunate to know Mahat. She was a kind, altruistic, and loving person who I will always remember. My thoughts are with you in these very difficult times.

France Aubť
Ottawa, Ontario




I am so saddened by this news. And though I have not seen Mahat in a few years, I always considered her a good friend with a great heart. During the times we spent together we laughed a lot.

Mahat was a beautiful person, both inside and out. Her strength and determination was always evident and I'm sure she apprached this fight with that same strength and determination.

Mahat, you were taken from us much too early. My deepest condolences to Rabah and her daughers Reena and Macie, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Reena Bhatt
New York, New York




Mahat showed us all what true courage is - she always had a smile on her face and a positive outlook and never complained.
Even when the odds appeared to be against her, Mahat would just say she was searching for a new solution.
Perhaps when we think we have troubles, let's think of Mahat - a young woman, daughter and sister, mother and wife who was taken from us way too early and so unfairly.
She taught us alot about how precious life is.
Her friendship was special to me and I considered it a priviledge to know her.

Maria McClintock
Ottawa, Ontario




Rabah, Reena, Macie,
Mahat was a truly special person and you are blessed to have her in your lives, your hearts. I was privaleged to have known Mahat.
I remember her smile so natural and brilliant.
An amazing mother, gentle and gracious in all she did. As one of her nurses and a friend, I was struck by her intelligence, dignity...wise beyond her years.
Once again, as I think of Mahat I see her smile and miss her dearly.

Toni Nallo
Ottawa, Ontario




Our thoughts and prayers are with you in your time of grief.
May memories keep the one you loved close to you in spirit and tought and always in your heart,today and forever.

Desjardins Pharmacy,IV Team




Rabah & Family,

I am so sadden with the news of Mahat's passing. I have not seen Mahat since my son was born 7 years ago when I went back to visited Ottawa again, but I always considered her a true friend. We shared many laughs and she always tried to figured me out, which was near impossible!

She was a true lady in ever sense of the word and she taught me many things, but somethings she would laugh and tell me "forget it Liz, you will not get it"!!!

She made me a blanket when I left Ottawa and moved away and I still have it and wrap up to it while I watch t.v. I will treasure that blanket forever.

You were a real Gem Mahat and I have missed you and now I always will.

My heart goes out to Rabah and the children. I pray that you will have strength and courage to get through this. I know you have a large family and you are not alone.

I will leave this poem for my friend.....

A friend is like a flower,
a rose to be exact,
Or maybe like a brand new gate
that never comes unlatched.
A friend is like an owl,
both beautiful and wise.
Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost,
whose spirit never dies.
A friend is like a heart that goes
strong until the end.
Where would we be in this world
if we didn't have a friend

I love you Mahat.
xo
Elizabeth Dillon




"Author Unknown"
"God looked around His garden and found an empty place
He then looked down upon His earth and saw your lovely face
He put His arms around you and lifted you to rest
His garden is so beautiful, He always takes the best
He knew that you were suffering, He knew you were in pain
And knew that you would never get well on this earth again
He saw your path was difficult, so He closed your tired eyes
He whispered to your soul and gave you wings to fly
You've left us many precious memories, your love will be our guide
You live on through your children, you're always by our side
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone
A big part of us went with you, the day God called you home"

Weíre going to miss you so much Mahat

Presented by:
Chadi Dabaghi
Sharjah, UAE




Dear Rabah.
We were so sorry to hear of your loss.
The thoughts of many are with you at this time of sorrow.

Houssam Chanbour and Family
Detroit, Michigan




Our Condolences to the whole family.
She was alway fun to be around Allah ya3ienkoum. wal3omour alkoum.

Liela/ Mohamad Merhi
Ottawa, Ontario




Words cannot even begin to express our sorrow.
May the peace which comes from the memories of love shared, comfort you now and in the days ahead.
My priers are with you and your family.

Elham




Our thoughts and prayers are with you in your time of grief.
May your memories of Mahat bring you comfort. God bless you all.

Peter & Helen Abraham




Sooo Young :( !!! Please accept our heartfelt condolences at this most difficult time , We pray that you will find the strength to get you through your grief and sadness.Allah yer7hama!!!

Elie/Ghada
Ottawa, Ontario




A great loss has struck us all. No words can express the saddness we are feeling. We all have lost a very special beautiful, young woman. Life is not fair some times. Mahat you left this world so soon so young.
You fought for a long time and never complained. May you rest in peace ya ajmal Mahat.
Our deepest sympathy and sincere condolences to the family.

Emad & Marie Salamy
Ottawa, Ontario




Mahat... Mahat... arenít we suppose to meet next summer in Marjeyoun... arenít we suppose to go out and let our daughters play together and bond with each other??
Arenít we supposed to catch up on the past times...? I guess we planned in vain and death interfered with our plans,,, you left so soon so sudden ...
I mourn you my precious cousin with every beat of my heart ,,, your cousins mourn you, all the people in Marjeyoun are mourning you cause you were so special to all...
All I can say is rest in peace you deserve to rest because you suffered a lot, sleep and rest precious angel, no more hospitals, no more pain, no more worries....
I guess it is our turn to experience the pain of losing you.... I love you, I havenít said it to you in a long time... I guess we just take things for granted... rest in peace my dear rest in peace ...

Nisrine Fouad Abu Mrad
Cairo, Egypt




Mahat,
when your guardian angel forgot to wake you up,
When death interrupted our sweet precious memories,
When time scattered us and threw us away,
When this world became too small for your big heart,
You left on the train to eternity,
Mahat,
arenít we all supposed to meet under the trees of our school?
Arenít we all supposed to remember the good times, when our smiles were genuine?
Mahat,
all your friends mourn your loss, but keep on walking my friend,
Keep on walking with your hands in His, and one day we will meet.
God rest your soul

Kh Michael Khatcharian
Norway